As oppose to any other material, the challenging chemistry and the ambiguity of glass attracts me, as I am a person who likes the challenge. Since one needs to cooperate with glass as oppose to just use it and compromise according to its reaction and patiently stay alert and calm, working with glass further complements my nature. This is especially important for me since I have spent all my formal education and over a decade of my professional life in finance industry where the motives and rules are poles apart.
The three works that I would like to present here stem out of my yoga practice. Five years ago, my father, at the time only 69 years old, has been diagnosed with advanced stomach cancer. He chose to have an operation although his odds of successful recovery was very low and following his operation, he spent 10 months in ICU- at times conscious and at times not- where I visited him every day. Each night going to bed, I found myself picturing my abdomen, my stomach, pancreas, and kidneys and caressing them with my thoughts and focusing my energy to their wellbeing. I was obviously terrified with the gravity of his condition as well as all the others that I witnessed each day at the ICU.
This carried into my daily yoga practice and the meditation that followed it. I kept on imagining myself taking my life into my hands as took care of my body and its parts. As a consequence, the following works started to develop recently.
Technically, I was able to make an exact copy of my own hand using silicone and later kiln-casted it. I also made several plaster copies of the mold so that I can blow into my hand or squeeze a blown piece with my two hands. Later I put the two pieces produced by different techniques together by simple cold work.
Resulting pieces have a dream-like, cloudy and floating feel. The green-bluish colors I used in two of them contribute to this result as well as the angelic clear glass of the hands. The pattern of colors I tried to put together for the ‘heart’ is an outcome of overlay of granules that I melted into opaque white glass. To get the hazy feel of the two other clear blown pieces, I first sandblasted the blown parts and later on polished them back to an extent where I got to the point I was intending for.
In conclusion, this process represents how and why I create. Glass becomes the words that not only express my past and present experiences but also my anxieties and expectations for future. As I incorporate glass into my daily life, I am able to speak out how I feel.